My Life & Faith By PauliAsheDina, ‘The Mad Jewess’

I usually do not like to post about things like this because I am a very private individual. But, this morning and for a few days I have been compelled to write about this.

My Jewish faith: Was my family religious? No. Not in the least bit. We attended NO synagogues in my youth, save a couple of times. We were invited to many Jewish events, true. But, Jewish by FAITH? No. My family only knew that ‘we came from the Jewish people’. We were, after all, Sephardic, Portuguese/Israeli, Hebrew people who hid in the Azores during the Spanish inquisition.

My faith….Just what is it?

My friend invited me to church when I was 23 years old. I believed that God was about POWER. Supernatural power. So, I went to this church and the Pastor asked if I wanted to be ‘saved’. I figured…Sure. Why not. So, I raised my hands to be ‘saved’. (I didn’t know just what the frick that meant, LOL) So, when I went into the back room with this lady, she told me to sit down and then asked me: “Do you believe that Jesus died and rose from the dead?” I, not really knowing a thing about Jesus at all said “Yeah”. I figured, why not? So, I left the church and now believed there was a “Jesus”. Who he was or what he was? I didn’t know at all.

The next day, I went to work and told everyone; “IM SAVED”. (I didn’t know what I was saved from). Many of my work friends asked: “What?” “What are you saved from?” I didn’t know. LOL. But, the way I said “I don’t know” was what was hysterical. I said “I don’t f’cking know”. RIGHT THERE AND THEN, when I said “I don’t f’cking know“…. A conviction came upon me that was so great and powerful. That conviction said: “You will not talk this way anymore.” I obeyed that conviction thereafter.

I went to church but I saw NO power. I wanted to see this Supernatural God and his power. My friend had gotten ‘saved’ and he asked me: “Wanna go to my church?” So, I went…And, it was POWERFUL. The music was SO powerful and so blessed that I felt like I couldnt even stand up. That’s how powerful it was. I remember people who were really sick becoming ‘unsick’ after they got prayed for. It was wonderful to witness.


So, the people were scattered as was I. Then I met my now closest friend, Pricilla. We had Bible studies in our apartment with a few people and we studied the Bible. We were intrigued and fascinated by the “Old Testament”. Pricilla is a lost Sephardic Spanish Jew also. So, we began going to the Synagogue in town. We went to their Passovers, Shabbat’s and so forth. It felt so good to be part of our ‘family’. Of course, we knew that the Jews at the synagogue didnt believe in Jesus but we didnt care. We just wanted our identity! We wanted to be around fellow Jews. They didnt ask us about how we believed and we didnt ask them anything. We just stayed and loved our fellow Jews. NO, we didnt go to the J4J’s nor did we attend Messianic synagogues. God kept us away from it. Why? I dont know.

THEN, I met my husband David years later. David Ben Moshe. Wow… The spirit of God had brought me back to my people in marrying my David. It was a wonderful, blessed situation. I was so in love with him…that I would do anything for him. My husband is a GEM. He was so respectful of my modesty, too. I didnt want to have sexual relations until we were married and he LOVED that about me. GOD IS GOOD!

David went to Hebrew school in NYC, attended the synagogue every Fri and Sat, etc. He had his Bar Mitzvah. But, he also became disenchanted with the faith because he saw no power. So, he stopped believing.

One night, I had a dream about Abraham. Yes, Abraham, the father of our faith. In my dream, Abraham told me: (Paraphrasing) “Pauli, do not ever push my son, David TO God. Do not demand he believe like you. In Gods timing, your husband will be open to God again.

Me and David have had SO many miracles in and around our life. NO, I have NOT pushed David. To this day. Sure, I read the Bible to him at night but mostly stories he is familiar with. HE LOVES Prophecies and the book of Proverbs.

I opened my website and named it “The Mad Jewess” FOR my husband. I have been IN the fight against Jew hate for almost 15 years online. I would do anything for our people. (Save Leftist “Jews”).

Thats my life, in a nutshell 🙂

5 thoughts on “My Life & Faith By PauliAsheDina, ‘The Mad Jewess’

  1. Dang, you look like the great gal terri that tried to bring me to the jewish messiah back when i was 17. Her friends disowned her and her family was irate for betraying judyism. She was the finest gal but i wandered from her as i didnt want to pay the price she had payed to serve Christ. I was a fool but i was young and i was already searching for what she found or rather what she accepted put before her. Gosh, had i accepted messiah, i might have had a great life with her. I was only a reformed jew that thought it was empty of substance of value. Thank God that he never gave up on me and kept putting Christ in my face till i said i brlieve and accept.

  2. Aww, ty.
    I ‘paid the price’ when I went to church, believed in Jesus etc. My Grandmother especially put me thru hell. My family mocked me a LOT.

    BUT: I never knew of the price to pay UNTIL I came online and was just “The Mad Jewess”.
    The ridicule, Jew hatred, horrible things said to me, day after day for weeks, months, years… I fought against some of the most miserable people alive. I cant even tell you of a time where it didnt hurt.
    I TRULY believe that if Jesus was walking the earth – IN THE FLESH – today…. A majority of Christians, Muslims, Nazis etc would hate him. Why? Because he would be dressed as a Jew and he would be here for Israel. These said people HATE Israel. So, in essence, they hate Jesus.

    When I first believed in Jesus, I never thought of him as a Jewish savior at all. I always thought; “This is the Christians savior but I BELIEVE!”
    I didnt find out til the late 90’s that Jesus walked the earth as a Jew. LOL! The scriptures went over my head for about 10 years!
    I didnt even believe he was JEWISH til I realized Isaiah 53 was GONE from the Torah/Tanakh at the Synagogue.
    I went home, read it and I was like……………WOW!! Why would they have this MISSING?!

  3. John 8:53-59
    King James Version
    53 Art thou greater than our father Abraham, which is dead? and the prophets are dead: whom makest thou thyself?

    54 Jesus answered, If I honour myself, my honour is nothing: it is my Father that honoureth me; of whom ye say, that he is your God:

    55 Yet ye have not known him; but I know him: and if I should say, I know him not, I shall be a liar like unto you: but I know him, and keep his saying.

    56 Your father Abraham rejoiced to see my day: and he saw it, and was glad.

    57 Then said the Jews unto him, Thou art not yet fifty years old, and hast thou seen Abraham?

    58 Jesus said unto them, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Before Abraham was, I am.

    59 Then took they up stones to cast at him: but Jesus hid himself, and went out of the temple, going through the midst of them, and so passed by.

  4. Don’t feel alone; it has happened to me as well; truly, He chooses when to reveal Himself in Scripture. I just thought that passage showed how He spoke with authority; that statement was “putting the hammer down” as to who He was.

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